disaster recovery

Yesterday, I had a heartbreaking mishap in the studio with the mystery project I’ve been hinting about on social media that really knocked me down. I had literally just put the finishing touches on it before disaster struck. Immediately, I felt that sickening combination of wanting to cry and throw up at the same time. You know that feeling, right? Just the worst.

But I had to race against the clock to do what triage I could before paint set beyond rescue, so I just had to sit with that awful feeling while I worked desperately to save weeks of work.

I think it's going to be salvageable. But honestly, I felt sick to my stomach about it the whole evening. Once there wasn't anything more I could do for the time being to save it, I had to shut the door on the studio and talk myself out of just giving up on it altogether. You probably know that feeling, too.

Kindness and understanding from Sal helped. As did Calypso, who had raced around in distress when I was so distressed, and required loves and reassurance that I was ok before she'd settle down. Saying it to her meant saying it to myself, too.

Getting to announce the winners and prizes for the challenge helped. And later, cozying up with my sweet husband and kitty on the couch helped. There was chocolate, too. That always helps, doesn't it?

I'm not giving up on the mystery project. I hope I can save it and share it with you soon.

Regardless, I wanted to share this with you, in case you're feeling like giving up on something you've put your whole heart into. Have some chocolate. Wrap up in a blanket on the couch. Let yourself hear the kindness and understanding from someone who loves you. Give ear scritches to your furry critters. Tell yourself you'll be ok until you start to believe it.